its always women.
i have this policy of not dating anyone related to my close mates.
i always had a thing for my best mates sister. after 2 years of knowing her we became good friends too. she asked me how i felt about her and i lied and said i don't feel anything and couldnt ever do anything with people related to my close friends.
after 6 months from then we became closer friends and i realised she was the woman of my dreams. i never told her or admitted how i felt but she and everyone else could tell. its been 4 years since she asked me how i felt and i regret not telling her.
to cut this long story short because of the way i feel about her weve been on and off friends for the last 4 years. we had a big fight once because she tried to push me into admitting how i felt and i wouldn't do it. because of that fight she didnt talk to me for a year and i lost my best mate.
i made an effort 2 months ago to talk to her. we chatted like nothing bad ever happened and one night we went out together. she told me I'm like a brother to her, which made me think that she'd finally stopped trying to push me to tell her how i felt and was also comfortable with just being friends. by this stage however i was ready to admit how i felt and i did. she was comfortable about being friends because she now has a boyfriend. i acted like it didnt bother me too much and wished her well. were not talking again now, ive seen her a few times recently and neither of us can bring ourselves to say anything.
me and my now old best mate are friends again but its not the same. he tells me that his sister and her boyfriend are pretty serious. theyre going overseas together on a holiday later this year.