decisions youve made that you regret making

[rthy]

I have told myself many times not to regret lending out my spare car to a certain prominant former forum member on here after he had a fatal car accident in it. For the greater part I am obviously no ok with what happened but fine with my actions, however I have many times thought to myself what if I didnt lend it out... I was a bit undecided afterall. It is for sure he wouldn't of been on the road at the time had I not leant it out.

Verm69: I know I would only be seeing a small part of the picture but it sounds very much that former relationship of your was quite one sided. I personally think if she felt the same way she would use every miunte of you being up there to spend time together, and the whole ex-bf thing just sounds really insulting to me. Are you sure you should regret letting her go?

[muncher]

<div class='quotetop'>QUOTE </div>Answer to your worrys is the interweb! many-a women! haha

[GAKI86]

i regreted not popping the question to a bestfriend of mine of how i felt.. she knew.. i kinda knew.. for not doing anything.. eventually she ended up with a much older guy.. we were roughly at year 9 and she went and gone with a year 12, i know.. its a bit off.. but girls do mature up quicker than guys at this stage... though we stayed as good friends.. she knew how i felt about her all of those time, 3 years since weve met..

the times when i see her with her older bf i just have to smile at her when i walk past, looking like it was nothing but it was paining me.. at times when we were hangin with each other we both stayed quiet that could no longer talk normally and could only mention the trivial stuff.. i can understand that shes withholding back and set up some sort of invisble barriers on me, since shes now with someone.. at the following years we slowly strayed away from each other as friends.. almost anonymous.. this was the start of the crappiest time of my life.. going to school got boring.. stopped looked forward to it.. though i got other friends afterwards.. it was never as fun back in the days of bieng known as the odd couple..(we were the very only asians of the place) it gotten pretty crap.. didnt even looked forward to it.. at that time my life was crap.. i felt like crap.. i looked like crap.. everything was crap...

till year the final year of my college years for 3 years ive tolerated that look from her face, like as if she was worried or sorry.. she always give me that solemn look which is always!!, always directed at me.. everytime when I'm in her viewing distance minding my own business and talking to my friends or just walking past... i just can't help noticing it.. it kinda worrying too where in the thought of her bieng pregnant... which was pretty common in my school.. quite a boganised place really... at times ive man up and walk up to her and ask with the look of hers.. as most of our conversations became pointless mostly constructed of hi how are you>so like whats up>yea kool>k>gtg>bye.. as plain as bread we couldnt talk to each other like normal people do.. we couldnt mention stuff what has one of us been up to... though i/ we still care somehow...

6 months till the end of year 12, the friendship with her girlfriends went really sour.. whom are also friends of mine... theyve all ganged up on her.. and she was on her own apart from her bf and his friends / cousins.. somehow i felt the responsibility to be on her side.. ive kept asking why to all her friends, blah blah blah its because this and that.. she good for nothing cat eating whore!!.. i kinda took the racial offence since I'm also asian.. i told them that, that wasnt really nice of them.. bieng as a dumbcunt ive tried to be a middle-man of the situation talking to both sides.. the one that got left out didnt took the word lightly, things went from really sour to fucted up!!! it followed a massive brawl!! i didnt get to see who was involved but i knew it was them.. teachers had to haul them out of the toilet!!!

with that happened the girls kept telling me that i had a big mouth while the other left without a notice...

i fuked it up big time...

i got called in by the teachers not long after that.. i thought i was in deep trouble.. they took me in the office and ask them whats the matter over... they said it was about me and her... oh shti... they probably think i was responsible over the rockus back then!!! but the principal was holding out 2 pieces of paper on my face.. it was a mid year exam essays.. and fuck do they ever look same!!!! the header, the writing, the fonting same!!! apart from the wordings and mental abilities...

as much as i was worried it brought a smile to me face.. that she still remembered the days how i used to throw those paper planes messages to her direction... i used to draw her stupid pics ranging to a full bore sketches.. she loved them all and collected it..

i looked pretty stupid smiling at the principal, much as bieng a dumbcunt that triggered the shti.. i just smiled and said.. we were once like this... (gesturing 2 little fingers connected)

ive withnessed "meant to be couples and eventually married up with kids" like rthys sister!!! and more from other friends of mine..special oppoturnities like that can hit you in the face even when youre not ready... its just the matter of how you deal and handle it.. imagine how would one person become.. surely he would be different than what he is now.. albiet happier i guess..

as for my case i fcuked it up over for not saying that very single word... blame fkin hormones for not kickin in...

that was my story..

[GAKI86]

not to mention i owe her a big fkin apology.. ^^

ive been tracing her since like verm..

but to no avail...

[monkae86]

i don't regret anything, given my time again i would probably do it all the same.

the thing you have to remember is every choice you will ever make in your life, is the best one you can make given the information you had at the time... what that means is, it impossible to knowingly make a bad decision.

but yeah, it always seems to be over girls.

[turbobrad]

Just Sold my Alfa, tis a sad day for sure!

[HachiRoku]

<div class='quotetop'>QUOTE (DonkeyKong @ Jul 1 2008, 10:25 PM) </div>Was it a red 33 by any chance?

(saw your post on the AlfaBB.)

[hatzo]

^^^ ive got one of those in my drive way sitting there needing to be fixed...

I regret buying one.. :lol:

[Gilly]

no regrets, i have been in bad situations and seen some horrid things even done some dodgy stuff in the past that could have turned fairly nasty for old Gilly, but in saying that my life wouldn't have got to the place its in now if i hadn't run off the rails a little and been so desperate to find someone to lead me straight if i'd stayed with my regular crowd who knows where i'd be now, i'm glad i found wise words in a friend, realised she was actually heaps more awesome than i had thought. 8 years later all is good signed up to the "death do us part" lock in contract 4 years ago and now have a kick ass 1 yr old daughter. i can honestly say i'd change nothing as everything led to what i have now and i'm very happy with that.

sure there is a few things i wish i hadn't said or done to people and theres a few corners i wish i hadn't hung the tail out (1st 86) for that long or entered that fast (yellow 70)

if i could do it all again i'd just play up more at school, it turns out i haven't used much i learnt there so far haha!!

[GAKI86]

bah eff off the girls, GO NINJA GAIDEN 2 I'm playing this muthafukka down!!!!